Every Tuesday morning, since last September, Eli and I get up, dressed, eat and out of the house by 9am to attend a Mom's group at our old church. Today was our last meeting until next fall and as I picked Eli up from the nursery I was reminded of the "early days" when he would cry as I left him and they would have to page me to come get him in the middle of our meetings. Today he was happily playing and was more interested that they had found his blankie than that I was there to pick him up!(15 min. late, I might add)
And then it hit me. I am falling in love with motherhood. I was not a "love at first sight" mom. Don't get me wrong, of course I loved Eli instantly and thought he was the cutest thing around, but motherhood was a different story for me. It took me much longer to get into the groove of being a mother than I expected! I thought because I had been around babies and had spent endless amount of time babysitting that it would be a perfect fit from day one. Instead it was a process of learning about myself, learning about my child and how we all fit together and function as a family.
It may have taken me a while, but I'm glad I've finally arrived here and can enjoy my role as Mommy and it excites me for what lays ahead. Whether you're a "love at first sight" or "fall in love after years of having it right in front of your nose" mommy, grab your kids/babies and hug them tight cause you're the only mommy they've got and they love you!